I can't stop thinking about it. I can't get my mind off of it. It seems that every page of Scripture speaks of it. I can't get over my ignorance of it. I can't stop agonizing over the fact that I do not feel the weight of it. I can't seem to create the tears by reason of it. Do I have the heart that is demanded? Do I have the desire that is desired? Is my faith dead? Am I just skimming the surface?
There is no doubt that I am. Deep below - where no man dares to go - there is a severity, a calamity, a sea of sorrow where, ironically, true joy is found. But I sit and giggle and chipperly gaze at the surface. I dance in Disney Land while the 3000 daily die. While the 3 second starving children pass away. While the parents pass along AIDS to their children by the millions. What was that? What did you say? Silence....shhhhh.....no one speaks....he's getting too serious for me....just tell me how I aught to live....be selective in your speaking from that Book mister...and let me go on my way....let me talk about my doctrine....let me go to my study.....let me eat my dinner and pay my mortgage....ssshhhhh.....dont speak of dying......suffering???.......what is that?.....the pastor is not telling me what I like.....he keeps speaking of those who will have our possessions.....the children - they are not ours.....the widows? - let their children care.....the pastor must stop this craziness.....write him a letter.....let's have a meeting to have him gone.......sssshhhhh....let me keep skimming the surface.....I wrote that check last month....I have given enough.....don't show me the pictures.....pull not at my heart but rather pull at my will.....tell me no more......compassion, mourning, and weeping doesn't fit my job description....let us play our games......the ball in the basket! the ball in the basket!!!! I will close my ears if you tell me otherwise!!! Ahhhhh....my chair. I am lost in the screen....the children...gone - my conscience now resting.....just skimming the surface.
Behold my mind and the wrestling match within...
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Posted by: Michael Pate | June 21, 2006 at 09:09 PM